Pure happiness

is rare with me.
but tonight it happened.
and i must say. its amazing.
just the feeling of being stress free. and smiling.

=DDD oh my. and the best thing about it is. nothing that great even happened!

i think some people forget

how young i am sometimes.
especially when it comes to band and church.

i’ve really had this prblm for the past year and a half.
i can only handle so much.
“It seems like your so much older Kelly, like 17″
i don’t look seventeen. sometimes i may act it. but in true reality I’m still fifteen. meaning.. i still have things to learn. I’m still going to mess up a lot. i still need to become wiser. sorry if you expected more out of me.
give me time to grow.

no. i cant make it to praise practice or church on sunday. why? i cant drive. yes, i do get nervous in front of guys, didnt you when you were my age. no, i cant solve ALL your prblms. why? I dont have all the answers, come on..your ages older then me. im sure you can figure something out. “Just remind your self to be the bigger person” … do you know how hard it is to be the bigger person when the person your trying to be bigger then is like 50? ha. I mean, i manage. but sometimes it kind of gets to me.

i feel blessed that people can rely on me. and im glad people have high standards for my behavior. it kinda keeps me in line. Sometimes it scares me though when people tell me they look up to me. when [age wise] i should be looking up to them.

Boys dont understand either. Especially the ones that like to toy with my heart. Now i know, but last year i didnt. Dont trust ANYONE. Love can be blind. people would say “I thought you saw it coming” or “Hes just a boy, dont worry about it”. HELLO. haha i was a 14 year old girl that had her heart broken by a guy that was over 2 years older then me. And i must say. The 1st broken heart hurts the worst.

My parents even sometimes have high standards for me. My sister just turned 18. but when we get in a fight, they tell me to ‘be the bigger person’ and keep my mouth shut and let her be. Truthfully i dont want to sit there.. listening to her bashing me. But i do. because for some reason i have to reach everyone’s standards.

maybe God has a plan for this.? maybe hes making me stronger for something. which frightens me.
but w/e.
im letting God write my life story.

People Sin

you cant change the past.
no matter how hard you try.
everyone makes mistakes.
but the thing that determines who we are is if we learn from them.
always remember;
Jesus died for a reason.
For our sins to be forgiven. anddd
Gods judgment is the only one that should matter.

best marching band memories [=

Guard.. hmm
1.] i was trying to do my 1st toss. i sucked so bad. =P but i had justina helping me so i eventually got it.
2.] apple bottom jeans.
3.] Our instructor Heather always trying to make me cry (= what a nice lady.
4.] looking like a brown/gold teddy bear.
5.] it raining cats and dogs at the community days parade.
6.] KATIEEE HIMEs [= enough said.
7.] Katie Hains and i talking about boys. She helped me though everything! haha. but i remember one time she told me how big the guy i liked Penis was and i started crying.. because i really didn’t want to know that at all! LOL and the best part was we were in the middle of MCdonalds. =D
8.] the triangle.
9.] QUITTING GUARD!!!! [=

INDOOR PERC
1.] joining it for a boy then us not being friends anymore =PPP that was the best =D
2.] The time we had 15 mins to get dinner. and Casey drove a BUNCH of us [more then the legal limit] to get food. we went to sheetz it was PACKED! we drove by mickeyD’s.. not worth it. We FLEW up to walmart grabbed JUNK. paid for it. packed into the car. While we were going back we drove past arron and casey flipped him off but mrs.rissal was right behind him! LOL. then we were pulling into the high school and we were speeding. [in a good way =P] and Sensor had a COW a mother COW. hahah. then what made it even better was mrs.R ratted casey out. We ended up having to clean the band room =D.
3.] “I GOT THIS!!!”
4.] knocking the accessory rack over. [= twice.
5.] Derrek always holding my ring on his necklace while we preformed.
6.] One of the guard girls lost a shoe while helping us put our mat out b4 we were about to preform.. we had to get it out.. we were timed. ha. ef.
7.] ImAfIgMeNtOfYoUrImAgInEaTiOn
8.] John and Chilise.
9.] idk if casey remembers this. but we were walking around wildwood and livin by a prayer came on and we started singing it. and the group of girls in front of us started singing it too because they thought one of their friends started it. =P
10.] People leaning over the rail to scare me. ha.
11.] being in the PoSiTiVe Patty group when we didnt make finals, [=.
12.] STOP dont touch me there!! THESE ARE MY NONO Squares [= =D

DRUMLINE oh NINE [=
1.] Fifteen!
2.] me hating mike during the 1st 2 weeks of practice.
3.] my concussions. which concludes me tripping over the drum major thingy with my bass on and blacking out for a second. Ryan hitting me in the head with bass 5. Emily running over my head. Me hitting my head off the side of the bus as hard as possible because ryan stole my hat and threw it to Ian. Ryan shouldering me in the mouth. [= Ryan chucking his indestructible cell phone at my head. Me breaking Ryans Drum head. ha. whoops. Then there were all those random times i bled but.. i wont go there.
3.] pal. mike. michael. BUDDY.
4.] jewcifer
5.] making fun of how alex runs [=
6.]  ward and jake. nough said.
7.] bipolarness.
8.] Fatty, being fat. scabes. shaggy.
9.] allll the 15 jokes.
10.] running to sheetz. [= and eating in that hall going back to the drum room in the stadium.
11.] the day mike completed my life when we were doing direct command. and i ‘accidently’ [; ran into someone after him being a jerk. THANKYOU mike [=. haha.
12.] ^ yeah nothing tops that other then. Being in the BEST section ever. [=

i dreamt last night.

[which is strange for me. because i NEVER remember my dreams.]

so last night i had a dream i really really needed blood because i was sick or something.
so they hooked up 4 volunteers.
two were an old couple, prbly in their 80’s.
one was a young lady.
and the other one was john wingard? lol.

they gave their blood to me.
and the nurse lady put it in threw my ankle.
but she put too much in.
so they had to get it out through sticking a needle through my eye.
and all the nurses and doctors in the room were fighting over weather or not they had to hold it up or to let it just flop over.
and when they got enough blood out this doctor came over and just RIPed it out. and i went color blind.
and for some reason my school didn’t accept color blind people so i had to switch. That week at my new school they had a football game against Dubois. I had to watch my old drumline go down to play drum cheers with out me. Oh yeah. and for some reason jasmine switched schools with me. We both played the drum cheers from the other side of the stadium.

it was a weirrrrd dream.

this is how life has been going lately.

one thing gets better.
then something else goes wrong.
then that prblm gets better
and then it never takes long for something else to go wrong.
a day tops.
yeah. ha insane.

i found this while i was doing a health project

People did a study on the attitudes, outlooks, and an actions of skinny vs over weight people. and thats normally the difference.

i think this is why im skinny. =P

isketch.

iNtErEsTiNg.. hmm. haha

The LORD says:

   The women of Jerusalem are proud and strut around, winking shamelessly.

   They wear anklets that jingle and call attention to the way they walk.

    ¹⁷But I, the LORD, will cover their heads with sores and I will uncover

   their private parts.

^18-23When that day comes, I will take away from those women all the fine jewelry they wear on their ankles, heads, necks, ears, arms, noses, fingers, and on their clothes. I will remove their veils, their belts, their perfume, their magic charms, their royal robes, and all their fancy dresses, hats, and purses.

    ²⁴In place of perfume, there will be a stink;

   in place of belts, there will be ropes;

   in place of fancy hairdos, they will have bald heads.

   Instead of expensive clothes, they will wear sackcloth;

   instead of beauty,  they will have ugly scars.

    ²⁵The fighting men of Jerusalem will be killed in battle.

    ²⁶The city will mour and sit in the dirt,

   emptied of its people.

read this too. job was p.o.ed or something =P
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Job%209:1-35&version=CEV

you might

have 2 eyes.
but you only need one to see.

you might have 2 ears
but you only need one to hear

you might have 2 lungs.
but you only need one to breathe.

you might have two kidneys
but you only need one to live.

you might have 2 hands
but you only need one to create.

you might have 2 dice
but you only need one to play a game.

you might have 2 crutches
but you only need one to get by.

having two of these things make life alot easier.
and we are given these “extra” things because that’s just how much god loves us

We were only given one heart though,
and i think its our job to find the one that goes with it.
When the time is right.

Love is Patient.
i can make due with one until my time comes.