i think im too much of a ;

bipolar teenager to even consider liking anyone. i just need to stop these stupid feelings b4 someone gets hurt,

oh my aching back;

and shoulders.!
im so glad i dont have to put on that bass drum for another 3 weeks. ! [=

oh yeah. did i mention we won last night.? yeh. who’s team sucks now. ha
i think im going to call lauren later to see if she wants to have a sleep over.? whoot
goodbye marchingband season.

I have never;

been more harassed at a football game in my life. [by the other team]
if we went anywhere we had to be in twos, because these people were just so rude and harsh.

DL was walking down to the field to do drum cheers and this kid shouts as we walk by “YOUR TEAM SUCKS” and i said “Have some respect!” and he said “your a %^&*(*&^%^&*(*&^%$%^&*(*&^%$#%^&*(()*&^%$#@$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#$%^&*()_(*&^%$#$%^&*(&^^$#%#%^$&^&I(*(_)*&^%$#@%^()*&^%$# *breath*$%^&*()(*&^%$%^&*(&^%$%^&*(” and then Mr. R and Mr. Sensor got all up in their faces. (: I really wanted to go over there and just punch that kid. Actually i tried but Ryan wouldn’t let me. he grabbed me by the drum. ugh. The only good thing that came out of that was the Cheerleaders really had my back. When they found out what happened they were ready to in their words “Punchaaa Bitch.” ha.

People there really need to grow the heck up.
One kid actually had the nerve to play Alex’s drum. And of course alex wont say anything to anyone. So i was like “WOAH buddy. dont touch the drums” PLAYING OUR DRUMS IS THE LAST THING YOU SHOULD EVER DO. its soooo disrespectful. Its like taking disrespectful to a new level. i hate the way people act sometimes haha. oh man.

got to love the band room

guess what [: im typing on a poly vision board right now

other then

being sooo tired; these past few days have ROCKED [=

ill make a list. [=

1.] on friday at practice dylan was being a dick. mike noticed, DL was doing direct command marching and mike set it up so i could run into dylan full force with my bass drum =D. it was the best.
2.] ^mike found out my head was ticklish.
3.] i slept over at livvys on friday night.
4.] we went to the dance.
5.] i saw a whole new side of jasmine.
6.] We won sam [=
7.] Virgin mary.
8.]GERMAN SWINGS AND SCREAMING =D
9.] pirite ship.
10.] Rachel, Tabitha, and Tyler =PP
11.] We scored a 89.6 =D beating our school record. 9TH PLACE !
12.] alex davis has been really really nice to me.
13.] BAND FOOTBALLL!!!! i got a few touch downs and tackled people.
14.] i found out im doing both indoor and track still not sure if thats a good thing.
15.] oh yeah, I DONT HAVE TO PUT UP WITH DYLANS CRAP ANYMORE =DDDDDDD. heck yes !

i love how

 

Depressing this blog is. haha or at least lately.  its like im constantly complaining about band. I can’t wait until the season is over so this madness will just stop. Right now im sitting in photography, its 12:50 i skipped the 1st half of it . Bri was curling my hair in the drum room. its weird what you find out about people when you actually take the time to talk to them. I feel blessed that im a listener. It seemed like she needed someone to listen. I feel so bad for her. shes had a rough past. but shes still living strong, which i admire her for. I always judged her to be ‘bad’ or someone i just should avoid. Shes a really great person though.  I’m not quite sure why im so judgmental. I judge people with out even knowing it half the time. Its not my job to judge. Its Gods. Anyways. Tonight i have practice then the football game. Its senior night. After all that im going to the dance. Then sleeping over at Livvy’s with jasmine. Its going to be a BLAST. Then tomorrow the band is heading to Hershey. <3 Halloween. Chocolate time =P . Then on sunday we competing. Then coming home. We prbly wont get back until about 4:00 in the morning.  So for the 1st time in DAHS history the school board is letting band kids come in at 10:30 but they are counting it as a full day! how nice. I get to keep my perfect attendance. It should be quite fun. =D sorry if anything is spelled wrong or messed up. i typed this pretty fast. =PP

geezeeee

mike had the biggest mood swing of his life today. on me.
we just got done paling around.
then he was taping sticks and i was like
“hey mike you should get jasmine to help you with that shes pro”
[because jasmines perfect. mike makes jasmine jokes all the time]
so he says in a rude way;
“I swear to God kelly if you ever say that again ill punch you”
so i said this jokingly to …hoping he was joking too.
“sorry mike didnt mean to hurt your ego”
and then he yelled at me somemore.
and i pointed out how he can make fun of anyone until no end. including me. and we put up with it. but if the smallest joke is made toward him he has a cow.. no a whole farm.. no ALL THE FARMS.. NO the WORLD. he gets so angry.

so i did the immature thing a skipped the 1st 1/2 hour of practice. i feared we might start fighting again and i didnt want to get punched.. or me punch him. so i guess it wasnt too bad of an idea.

oh yeah. I love olivia!

The end.

ive reached the point

 where ive gotten that ” fuck you ” attitude.
the sad part is almost every single one of my friends love it.
just because im living life more and having fun.
ive become more interesting.
though there are a few who dont like it…

… i dont like it. i want a clean mind again. a nice attitude. a caring personality.
but as mike said. theres no going back.

and hes right, sin just keeps growing and growing and growing. its hard to stop too.
but its worth a shot.

i want to be the kelly i was b4 drumline.

its the price

i pay for an impulsive move.
sadly he’ll have to pay it too.

now i remember why i always think things through and take the time to pray about things before i do it. hes a good kid. we’re just not clicking.

like im ready or have time for a relationship anyways.
i enjoy not liking anyone; and having my life drama free, when it comes to boys anyways.

adults can be;

the most non-understanding people in the world.
                          ^^ if thats even a word.

oh sensor. what am i going to do with you.